We had been moving along with things at the new house and I had made an appointment with REACH (Reproductive Endocrinology Associates of Charlotte) to find out if I had endometriosis and to see about further fertility treatments. I made the appointment the day before Thanksgiving so that gave us the perfect excuse to visit my family there! I was having all kinds of odd symptoms so I thought nothing of the fact I had started having extreme bloat, girls I am talking WAY more than normal, thankful I had lost those 19 pounds and could fit back into clothes again plus had some room. I noticed I was a few days late and that was out of the norm for me. I also was having some mood swings and started to get tired more frequently by the end of the day I was ready for bed 9pm. I just figured OH JOY more new symptoms of whatever was going on. I remember mentioning to Scott that I was late but brushing it off, I was sure there was NO way I was pregnant....How could I be with all the crazy stuff going on in my body? He did ask if I had taken a test yet. The days kept passing and at about 4 days I remember Scott saying again I should take a test, I had one left over. I said I would but put it off again, I wasn't going to take another negative test and waste money & a perfectly good test. Then day 5 came and he asked again about taking a test and I had given my speech and he said I had already I wasn't wasting money and to just take it! I promised I would in the am if I had not started ( still thinking I was not pregnant so why bother).
Sunday morning I got up earlier than Scott and immediately went to the bathroom and got the test from the bottom of the drawer, I can honestly say I really have no idea what changed my mind. I figured this would just be another negative test. So as I sat there with only the morning light peaking through the blinds I did the test and sat a second and thought about what I am not sure. I remember thinking ok it's done maybe I can go lay back in bed and check it later. I promise not even a minute went by and poof there appeared one strong line and HOLY COW another faint line but a +. Wait what.... is that a positive NOOOOO no way the line is kinda faint and I have never had a test turn that quickly. I remember thinking please don't get my hopes up and break my heart protect it I am not strong enough to handle that. I yelled for Scott, yep I woke him up and I was still sitting there in bathroom holding the test with I am sure a confused look on my face. He assumed I ran out of toilet paper again! He came in all sleepy eyed and I remember looking at him and asking him what does he think this is, what did he think it meant? Does it really say I am.....pregnant?? He looked at me at the test and then said I don't know, but we had to go to the store to get ones that said the words and that were not out of date. I looked at the package and it didn't expire until 2015 so it was good. He asked if it could be a false positive from everything going on, I said i doubt it but anything is possible. I looked at the box and it said past 5 days it was like 95 % accurate or something. I wondered how this happened with everything going on and if this would be ok. Needless to say off we went to CVS with coupon in hand and got the only digital ones they had, a box of 3! I got some coffee and we came home and did somethings then I took the tests again. It took less than 1 minute and the digital screen said pregnant and that I was about 5 weeks along ( it was one that tells you a window of how far along). I showed him the test with a smile. I think we both were in shock for awhile but I had realized it wasn't false that I WAS pregnant. I looked at my phone and saw the ovulation calendar and with now 4 test I had staring back at me I knew that I had finally gotten pregnant. He didn't seem so convinced so we had to call my best friend who is a nurse to help confirm the results for him. I admit I checked the test several times each, kept coming back in to look at them and make sure they had not changed.
Like I said this was NOT the way I ever imagined it going. I had grand plans of putting the test in a box with a rattle or something and wrapping so he would find it after work one day. I had seen so many cute ways to tell him on Pinterest and stuff that I figured I would use.
It was an emotional thing to go from being at peace with the fact that I probably would not ever get pregnant on my own or at least not until after the scope procedure to then BOOM a positive test. I literally held my breathe for weeks hoping everything was alright and knowing that the percentage of miscarriage was high. I had some cramping and spotting a few weeks after finding out and I was worried especially with my history of everything going on. I went in and they checked labs and confirmed I was pregnant. That was also a another horrible experience to go through since they apparently thought I probably had lost an embryo but did not tell me just had me worried about ectopic pregnancy all weekend. Needless to say it wasn't ectopic and my HCG levels were high but it was ok. They saw the sac and things looked fine. I spent the next several weeks holding my breathe until my 9 week appointment with the new OBGYN I was establishing with. I just needed to hear or see this tiny thing inside me and make sure it was ok and counted down the days.
Now I needed to figure out a creative way to tell our parents especially since this is the first grand baby for my parents & nobody expected this was coming. Plus it was our first and you do not get that chance again. I scoured the internet for ways to tell them and we settled on a frame that said tiny miracle since it summed it up perfectly. It was a miracle that we beat the odds and that it finally happened on it's own. I felt so blessed to have this happen.
This was the day before we left to come to Charlotte for my appointment at REACH, both parents thought we still had the appointment so it would be a total surprise. That was one of the best appointments of my life getting to see the baby for the first time and hearing the heartbeat- the best sound EVER. It brought tears to my eyes, my husband just held his breathe while they kept checking to make sure there was just one. It had a very strong heartbeat and was on track and looked good, I was healthy and so was baby. We got my due date and the pictures of the ultrasound that we could put in the frames for each set of grandparents! I could finally breathe easy as the doctor told me I had pasted the first hurdle or window of when things go wrong. I had like a 90% chance of my pregnancy ending in a birth from that point. I carefully placed the picture in the frames and wrapped them in orange wrapping paper with brown bows hoping not throw them off too much since it was Thanksgiving. Needless to say they were all thrilled and I recorded the reactions and set it to music as our announcement thanks to my sister's help. I would share the video but I am unable to post video at this time...working on how to without it just freezing. I will post one of the pics my sister took at a mini session for our Christmas cards.
This was my Christmas gift from my sister....LOVE it. We had used a blank chalk board in the pics.
So we are having a Mini Wheat June 28 2015!!
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